China --> America

  Okay so recently I've been keeping up with this one show that had an episode about adoption. This got me thinking a lot about my own life.  Being adopted to a lot of people seems pretty cool, and it is sometimes. But like its kinda annoying not knowing where you came from. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and am eternally grateful for them, but sometimes its just hard not to wonder what are my biological parents like, do I have any siblings, where would I be if I wasn't adopted.... ya know. Its probably hard to imagine if you yourself aren't adopted. It also hard not to think about like where and who did I inherit all of my traits from??? Sometimes I get questions from people about whether I want to find my biological family or not. I don't really know what to say to that. Like I don't want to be disappointed, but at the same time, it will always be n unanswered question. Luckily my family and I are very open to discussion and are willing to help fe find any answers I want which is great but like for some reason I am not entirely compelled to like do that much research. I though of doing like ancestry or 23 and me but like idk. Also another thing about being adopted that really sucks is that the doctor has absolutely no medical history for me at all. Every time I get medicine or like have a reaction to something, im not really sure what its from or anything because my family medical history is nonexistent . That can sometimes be really frustrating because sometimes idk wtf is wrong with me if I have a reaction to something ya know. I have learned through just experience that I am lactose intolerant and also have a mild sensitivity to the sun. Maybe if I had some medical history I would expect it or maybe I wouldn't, who knows. Being adopted also come with the all of the weird stares. My mom doesn't really think much of it, I guess because she was the one who adopted me and just like doest care and just loves me, and most of the time I don't think about it, but sometimes its just hard not to think about. Like sometimes just randomly I think like wow I am not biologically your child. And since im asian people who don't know my parents usually just assume that my parents are asian as well. But the people who do know me its nice because like they don't really think twice about it either. It just is. My friends and family just see me as me and my mom as my mom. Anyway I guess I could go on forever about this but like yeah.